Beginning of Stillness
Be still.
From this day forward I will live in my stillness. I will sit in my content truth. I will get to know myself. The real me. I will self reflect what have I always known and am just now remembering. I will slow down time to learn how to conserve energy. In slow motion and stillness I can prevent errors, think about how I speak, and realize my empathy goes farther than most. It turns into sympathy because in this place where the volume is down on distractions and I am so still every action becomes slow and deliberate. I try on other peoples shoes. All of my senses are turned up I just know you. I know your pain and I know how to heal. Healing is like a drug to me. It’s the best part of my job. I realized recently I have been still my entire life.
I have really early memories. I remember back farther than most. I remember being in diapers, from the age of two I could play in my room with my toys alone in silence for hours. I would create games, play with my stuffed animal family that lived in houses set up all over my bedroom. My favorite thing to do was play school and pretend I was a sighted student. I didn’t want to be one. I always wanted to be me. I just wanted to play one. I would get one of those Big Chief Tablets of paper just like my sighted classmates had and scribble a pretend assignment in it. My favorite part of this thing was to pretend I had a worksheet to color like my classmates with pictures on it. Sometimes in class someone would take my fingers and touch it to the paper and say what it was a picture of. This is a dog. This is a boy playing ball. I would get manila paper and touch it and imagine my own pictures. I was very outgoing and I still am, but I was unafraid to play alone. Now I will devote every day to consciously decide to live in stillness. I will be still in my happiness, console myself in it when I am sad. And cool down anger and quieten inside and outside chaos in my life. I will work and heal with precision. Anticipate my clients need with my intuitive touch. I, Maisie Fields will live my life in stillness.
For those of you not familiar with the Big Chief Tablet, here’s a fun video about them!